A Life Worth Living....Now

So today was weigh-in day. I lost 1.8 lbs, which is just shy of my 2lb goal for the week. Overall I'm happy with the results, although my dream of just dropping the weight with ease is pretty much squashed. I've always dropped weight quickly in the beginning of any diet, but not anymore. I don't know if this has anything to do with the fact that I'm getting older or what, but in any case, we are looking at a long road ahead. At this rate, I won't really consider myself an acceptable size for another 6 months.

Do you ever find yourself daydreaming of all the things you are going to do or wear when you lose weight? I do all the time. After much consideration, I've decided not to wait 6 months to do those things. Whether it be a new outfit, an event, or even dinner out with my husband, I've somehow convinced myself that because I'm overweight, I don't deserve to enjoy these things. This is crap. Six months of living this way, just waiting to be "thinner", will be hell on earth, just as every moment of being and feeling fat has been. I'm ready to start living NOW. The change in lifestyle is just a small, but nessesary, part of a life I will start letting myself enjoy.

What took me so long to finally realize that I deserve it all? :-)