To Health and Happiness

So I posted my "before" pics yesterday, and in true "before" pic fashion, I made sure I had zero makeup on and looked about as frumpy as I could possible look. Ok..who am I kidding? That was me on my way out to the gym looking no worse than I always look. I guess it's just hard to really accept that this person is me. I don't feel that fat. I see the size 14's and 16's staring me in the face, and yet I feel like a 12. I can't really tell if this is good or bad, but one thing is certain. No matter how fat I look in real life, because I've committed to making this change, tomorrow I will be a little smaller and healthier.

I wanted to take a little walk down memory lane and check out some "skinny" pics. This is me just shy of 2 years ago. The reason this picture stands out to me isn't because I look thin, although I was pretty thin. It's because I look healthy and happy. I've spent the last year and half thinking about why I was putting on weight, and all the while, I was putting on more and more weight by turning to food to console myself for putting on weight. How sick is that? So in the spirit of health and happiness, I've done some evaluating of my current goal of losing 3 lbs per week. While I'm able to manage the caloric deficit require for a 3lb loss per week (on paper that is), I think eating 1250 cals per day isn't enough when my BodyBugg says I'm burning up to 3700 on some days. I just don't feel good. So it is with complete commitment to my health, and total surrender of my vanity, that I actually make a choice to lose weight more slowly in the interest of being healthy.

Now with some of that pressure gone, and a little more wiggle room in my diet, I'm going to eat enough for dinner tonight in order to actually feel strong during my 45 min jog on the treadmill tonight. :-)